My ECT Journey: Day 2
The second day of my ECT treatment was pleasantly less painful than the first. This time I had minimal pain throughout my body, and I wasn’t even nauseous at all, which made the whole thing a little more bearable. I am a little worried however, as neither the benefits nor the side effects have become noticeable yet. Although I do recall receiving the anesthesia the first time, but the second time I just woke up in the recovery room, without a clue how I got there, which was a little scary. I guess the short term memory loss is making its debut, which is the one side effect that I really hoped I wouldn’t experience. That being said, I was warned that it could take up to 4 treatments for the benefits and side effects to begin to show, and I’m only at 2.
Honestly I don’t really like the whole process, I don’t like getting an IV each time, because I bruise easily with IV insertions. I don’t like the amount of time that I have to wait to get treated, because it puts a burden on the person having to drive me and pick me up. I don’t like everyone looking at me like I’m some kind of 2 year old when I wake up from the anesthesia, “Hi there, are you okay?” I mean I get why they act like that, there are probably patients that wake up and freak out not knowing where they are. I just don’t like being coddled, it’s a huge pet peeve of mine. It’s funny, because even at home all I get is coddled, because y’know, suicide attempts, but I’m used to it now from my mother, from other people I cannot accept it. I guess I’m still getting used to the ECT in general, hopefully I won’t need all that many treatments.