Giving Up

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7 Responses

  1. I know how hard it can be. Keep fighting. You are worth it. Tomorrow may be better.

    Sending hugs and wishes for you to continue to find reasons to keep fighting.

  2. It seems so easy to give up. Like really easy. But I want to challenge myself to better myself

  3. em says:

    i’m sorry. i really relate. it’s hard to see the value in living when every moment is hard, when you know that the next one and the one after that will be a struggle. but sometimes, the struggle is less. sometimes, there are moments of joy. i live for those. but i get it. i resent, at times, being tethered here. still, i’m glad you’re doing what you need to do to stay here because sometimes, it is better.

    • alanwolfgang says:

      I agree. There are moments worth living for. Yet, I can’t seem to find any reason to stay. I’m hoping for just one single reason to come along, because until then, I’m stuck.

  4. Darcy says:

    I am a mother of four and a pretty awesome husband these days, and I still struggle with this same issue. I have all the reason in the world to “want to live,” yet I don’t. I have sacrificed so much of my goals in life to be a mother, and truthfully, my husband wasn’t always great and he took a lot from me when he was extremely selfish. I worked and still work to help our finances because of the issues with plastic and instant gratification my husband thought he needed (he’s so much better now) which also meant I had to quit school because I just couldn’t handle a full time job, full time school, full time children, and full time house sh*t. My kids obviously come first in situations like that because they didn’t choose this life, I chose it for them. And while things have been so wonderful for four years, my goals for a career are completely diminished. I cannot go back to school because the cost, not only emotionally but financially as well, was so great that I just have zero desire for it. The career I wanted to go into would also mean that I would be case overloaded and with four children that is extremely NOT ideal. It would wreak more havoc than it would create a sense of purpose in my life. So now, I work a menial job that has been stressful this year, by far, and my children now act up as a result of the way my husband and I would communicate for most of their lives. Working to correct that is a full time job in itself. So here I am, a mother of four, wife, and a full-time job who sacrificed so much of herself to maintain her family that I don’t even know what I like any more other than my blog and my creative outlets (singing, crafting). I want to give up because I don’t know who I am any more. I dissipated. I am not me any more. I’m stuck in this place called no where and no desire for much of anything. I mean, I try everyday to just feel happy, to find something else I might be able to find a new goal or dream in, but everything just seems to get in the way and I find it pointless to even try most days. And I don’t know why I do, but I do keep trying, almost out of habit.

    • alanwolfgang says:

      Wow, thank you for sharing all of that. I hope that your situation improves, and soon! As for me, hearing your story has given me a small glimmer of hope, at least knowing that I’m not alone. Thank you!

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